She was not very fair, a bit dusky but there was some kind of a glow in her face .... She was not the prettiest girl i had seen but her features were breathtaking. In all, she was a perfect looking girl.... I don't know it was her glow or my desperation that I felt something the very moment I saw her..... I had to know her .....
I am neither James Bond nor have any relation with him or any other great detective but I could tell her name and her company name at least from the bag and the badge she had on her.....
I was staring at her for like over a minute or so when our eyes met the first time.... The very next moment I turned my eyes away whispering or may be humming 'OMG!! OMG!! What should I do now?'... As there was still time for the train to arrive and I couldn't think of anything else, I walked half the platform down and returned with a bottle of water and some chips.... To my surprise, I found her looking at me.... It was the look saying 'Go Away !!! Stop stalking me' ..... Well I was not stalking her .... she was sitting right in front of the screen displaying B2 ... But she was right on her side as there were some seats vacant at some distance and still I was standing there only ..... I gave her the 'I know what you want' look and got settled in one those unoccupied seats ......
The train arrived few minutes later and what a luck .... My seat no. was 72 and hers 59 .... direct opposite .... Oh God!!! Thank u Thank u Thank u !!! ..... When she saw me settling into my seat she gave me a smile.... may be she was trying to apologize for the misconception she had out there .... but 'guru' i was like 'Hassi toh Phassi' .. ;)
I was on Cloud 9 for a moment, I was full with confidence but still hadn't courage to go and talk to her .... I gathered myself up several times, but never tried ...... I even had the full conversation ready .....
'Travelling alone?'
'Ya'
'Its very boring na'
'hmmm or ya'
'Wanna chat'
'ok' then great .... if she gives a confusing look
'M talking about just chat ... no names .... no phone nos. ... nothing .... just for passing time'
I was sure that she's not gonna say no for this ..... and may be she'll tell her name and if I am lucky enough phone no. after chatting for a while. But still, I didn't ......
Every second was like an era ..... I was continuously staring at her and I bet she had noticed me doing so.... Few hours past .... I didn't do anything but going through the planned conversation again n again.... Oh No!!! She took out a book from her bag .... What now? She's not getting bored anymore .... After all, it was Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho, one of my favorites..... It was like 'Dil k tukde tukde karke muskara k chal diye' for me.....
There was no other option left than watching some movie on my laptop for distraction ..... I guess I watched 'Inglorious Bastards' ... Its a nice movie so it worked .... but then there was she again standing just behind me washing her face .... Shit!!! Shit!!! .... Why the hell am I on the last seat .... Ok no probs .... U can do this .... U can go n talk to her .... but no, I didn't .....
It was around 11 o' clock when something struck my mind.... An Idea .... a great idea .... I looked for a piece of paper and a pen in my bag .... Yes! Yes! I was going to write a note to her .... but wait I don't have a pen .... and its 11 in the night, everybody is sleeping ..... I was stuck again but this time I was desperate enough to search the whole train to look for a person who was awake and second had a pen ....
My luck was going great .... i did find such a person.... Well, it was 7-8 coaches away, but still I got it .... I wrote
'Hey!!! I know u noticed me looking at you .... well, i tried to come n talk to u several times but didn't hv enough courage.... but now i hv ... So, wat u say ? wanna chat??'
I waited for the right moment to deliver the note but was again out of courage... but again to my aid, she went to use wash room .... I went to her seat and left the note in her book .... She came back .... saw the not .... looked here n there confused .... opened it ... read it ... gave me a wierd look .... and went back to reading .....
I can't express what I was feeling at that time .... It was like I had just lost everything .... I just went to sleep .... Pune arrived at 2 am .... I got down from train just to see her boyfriend receiving her with hug and a kiss on the cheeks .... It couldn't have been worse ....
I told myself to forget all this and just move on ..... But It was like she had pledged to make my life worse ..... I took out the water bottle from my bag and there fell a piece of paper ....
'Hey!!! Sorry but I can't .... U see my bf is coming to pick me up. I traveled this far just to meet him...'
wtf !!!! If you don't wanna chat ... Ok .... whats the need of writing all this ..... And it ruined my entire trip .... For the whole 2 days, I was thinking about her only .... I wanted to meet her again ...
I didn't have net access in Pune and the first thing I did coming back to Hydearbad was to search her on FB .... but my bad luck ....
Hey !!! Hey !!! The story is not over yet ..... I told you that she had pledged to ruin my life .....
It had been around 10 days, I came to office as usual and opened FB. There I found .... 1 new message .... OMG!!! ... I didn't believe when I saw the name ...... It was her ..... I was totally confused .... I opened the msg ... It said ....
'Hey... i found your note in my bag .... u knw wat i saw u dat day luking for a pen n i think u struggled a lot to get d same.... it was cheesy (wait wait it was not cheesy ... not at all ... no way .... but does that mean it worked....???)but cute (now its too much .... it was not cute .... it may be innovative, cool, thoughtful but cute... no .... but np... carry on) .... and i appreciate dat... i think we can be frnds ...'
And then i noticed her friend request.... I was confused .... really confused .... And I decided to take some time ..... I neither accepted the request nor rejected it.....
***** Well u may be wondering that i never told her my name .... Well, I also wondered the same ..... but then I recollected that the paper I used for writing her the note was a copy of my online train ticket ..... ******
***** Well u may be wondering that i never told her my name .... Well, I also wondered the same ..... but then I recollected that the paper I used for writing her the note was a copy of my online train ticket ..... ******
It had been days .... and then there came one of those days when you don't have control on urself .... It may be bcoz of anything -- anger, joy, sorrow, tension, frustration ..... anything .... mine was obviously coz of frustration ...... I finally replied to her msg ...
'When I saw u d 1st time I felt something for u.... Dont knw ... it was luv at first sight(well i dont believe in dat) or just attraction. If it was luv, i think we shudnt b frnds or to b specific jst frnds... and if it was attraction, then its not a prob... bt cant take risk ... i know ki risk toh spiderman b leta hai ( OMG!!! i can't believe till date that I wrote this) but still sorry'
I even rejected her friend request. I got her reply the next day.
'It was nice knowing u .... Its my bad luck to miss a chance to know u better ... U r 1 of d best guyz i ever met... may be the best even'
Ok ... Ok ... Ok .... U caught me ..... the last part never happened .... She didn't reply at all .... And till date I curse myself to reject her friend request and sending her that msg .... But thats life ... U do a lot of things which u regret later ......
But i still dont know it was luv or attraction !!!!!!
